Well, I'm going to sit here for a few minutes and try to update the horrendous state my life is currently in. For those of you who visit more for my art or favorite links or happy thoughts, my apologies and no offense taken if you just choose to move on. I just have a few minutes to myself at the moment, and managed to find some semblance of sanity when I woke up this morning, so bear with me.
To all of you very wonderful people who've sent well wishes of all sorts, I want to thank you. When I do happen to remember my net life, I'm warmed by the messages I find on my journal and in my email.
I really have no idea how to explain what is going on in my life, because I don't truly understand it myself. At the moment and for the upcoming future, my entire family is surrounded by a network of police officers, bodyguards, personal drivers, school officials, security cameras and family members who are intent on keeping my family safe. Why? Your guess is as good as mine.
There is a woman, I referred to her ages ago, who has taken it upon herself to....to what?....destroy my family? I don't know what else to call it. In recent weeks, she has verbally attacked all of us....threatening to kill us all, starting with the 10 year old KinderArtest, whom she refers to as a "fucking little cunt", and working up through my children to me and Paul, and finally burning our house down. Don't ask me why, because if I could figure out exactly what we have done to make her this way, this whole thing would be a whole lot easier to deal with.
I spend every waking moment staring at these security cameras. It envelopes my every thought. I've probably looked at the monitors no less then twenty times since starting this post. I "sleep" in front of them. My husband keeps the volume up so you can hear the audio in the bathroom. There are three other buildings on the street with cameras aimed in the direction of my house. I think, all total, there are about 16 cameras out there. You would think we're some wealthy, important family....you would think I was living a movie.
There's been more then just threats...there's been violence. And there's so many people involved now it's unbelievable. On both sides. Most recently, we had a home invasion committed by a couple of people who were hanging out at her house. My children got to watch forensics swab blood and lift fingerprints and I didn't sleep for three days. There's warrants for their arrest, but my children are now escorted back and forth to school because these people have been seen circling my kid's school for the last couple of days. They are picked up every morning, and dropped off every afternoon. Ask me how much my kids hate losing their freedom.
The worst part, aside from the stress, and the worry, is the frustration that we have been dealing with this for weeks now, and nothing seems to be getting done. No one has been arrested. With all of these people involved, you would think that SOMETHING would be happening to give my family some peace....but instead we STILL cannot leave the house unescorted, there are still cameras all over, there are still threats coming from the woman. Policies and procedures, is what we get told. Things have to be done a certain way, or all of this is for nothing.
This past week has been the hardest.
Sound a little to surreal to you? Yeah, that's how I feel.
There you have the basics in a not so comforting nutshell, for all of you who have asked. I'm sure it's not exactly what you expected to read, but now you have an answer as to where I've been. And even though I don't respond, please know how much I appreciate you and the little slivers of normal life you inject into my world.